https://mysoulrunsfree.com/a-few-words-on-being-lonely-pt-2/ Thu, 21 Mar 2019 22:51:05 +0000 hourly 1 https://mysoulrunsfree.com/a-few-words-on-being-lonely-pt-2/#comment-121 Fri, 24 Nov 2017 19:08:32 +0000 http://mysoulrunsfree.com/?p=325#comment-121 I’ve suffered so much loss. My grandparents who were everything to me growing up. My brother, my parents. A divorce. My daughter passed away at 20 years old, my three close childhood friends, I ended up having to move clear to the other end of the United States. Been here 11 years. I’m alone, I don’t fit in anywhere with anyone here. Not even in every church in town. I’ve become invisible. I’ve never experienced being invisible before. It’s so painful. Financially I’m stuck here until further notice. I’ve cried out to God for a friend. 11 years. I feel stuck, alone, invisible and like I don’t matter. But very recently God showed me to stop looking for humans to fill my loneliness. To look to him instead. That’s the journey I’m on now. All alone in the whole world in the physical sense but holding hands spiritually with Jesus. He shows me new things everyday that I might miss if I were distracted by people.
I’m not sure why I’m so invisible here, I’m kind, and a good and loyal friend. People here don’t bother to notice or give me a chance, even in churches. It’s bizarre! But I’m growing spiritually everyday now that I’ve quit pouting and complaining to God about it. I truly believe I have friends waiting for me on the other side of this desert season of life. By God’s grace I will be better for it. Amen.

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